I have this metaphor about my brain being like a hamster and his wheel. Now there is two theory that goes with this. First the hamster is too fat and can't ran as fast as he should. I can just imagine this plump hamster trying its hardest to run. He tries really hard to run as fast as he can he get up to a certain speed and he is feeling good about himself. Then all of a sudden his little chunky paw gets caught in one of the spokes. That when all hell breaks loose. The chubby hamster is now tumbling inside the wheel hoping that the wheel will stop and he can be free of his spinning. Sometimes I feel as if my brain isn't working fast enough, and if I try too hard it just spins out of control. The second theory is that I don't have a very bright hamster and he doesn't know which direction to run on the wheel so he starts running on way and decide maybe this isn't the right way. He turns around and start running the other way. Melissa totally agrees with me on this theory. She like the fat hamster theory and mocks me constantly about it. The reason I bring this up is because the hamster is at it again. The last couple of days I have felt as though the hamster is just holding on for dear life and the wheel is out of control. I hate having that feeling. It is hard for me to want to do anything. I push through it most of the time and just deal with what feels like a daze. Today was one of the days where I could not push through it. I just was in a funk. I wanted to study for school but that is impossible when I feeling this way. The only thing that got me through this day was one of my favorite TV shows, My Name is Earl.


Besides the fog that is over me things are going great. Me and Melissa are getting ready to go through the temple. This is something that I have been wanting for a long time. We are also having Jackson blessed soon which is something we have been looking forward to. Melissa has been back to work now for about a month or so. She really enjoys it but hates working the morning shift because Jackson keeps her up at night. Melissa is going to move to the new hospital soon. She scared and I just keep thinking that if it doesn't feel right she doesn't have to stay there.


Tonight during scripture reading we read in second Nephi about how Satan tries to tell is to be idle. It is so true that when your idle you think all is well and that nothing is wrong. Then you start to forget things, like say your prays, go to church. I also like this chapter because it take about all the different churches teaching false doctrines. It kept bring my thoughts to how important the gospel is in my life. It also brought to my mind, the prophet Joseph Smith. I have always felt the spirit the strongest when anyone talks about him. I loved teaching people about him on my mission and I would say it with such great faith and a knowledge that he is a man of god.


Below is a video of Jackson. I was listening to my music, which you will also hear in the video, and it looks as if Jackson is dancing to the music. He is such a cute boy. He is now about 4 months old. He is starting to giggle and smile.

You will have to bare with me on the music. Some people might think that, that kind of music isn't something that Jackson should be listening to. I think he is one cool dude and can handle any kind of music I play. I don't play the really hard kind of music, just medium music.

Well enough for now hope you enjoy the pictures. - Justin